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sajer jer, just wanna kill my time,,kill kill die die=p

banyak skang orang kawen kan…hummmbagus,,ok la,,kalo dah mampu, tunggu buat apa, kawen jer la,,tapi,,kadang2 ak terpikir gak la, yang kawen tue, termasuklah,,emm,,para artis ker, ceo ke, mb ker,,sapa2 jer la, asalkan nama manusia,,camaner ngan ilmu didada nie,,sebab kawen nie byk gak tanggup jawab kan,,,meh kita amik satu contoh jer la,,,

“suppose…”(ayat prof ak, tribute to mr igor,,bukan nama sebenar),,,undang2 malaysia mewartakan, sapa nak lelaki yang nak kawen kena wajib tahu baca alquran,,kalo tak tahu,,takley kawen!!!hohohoho..agaknya kalo dalam 234 org yang nak kawen, bapa kerat yang tinggal,,ok,,mungkin siket jer yg tak tahu,,”suppose”…maybe lam 2 3 org jer kowt, ok meh kite tambah lagi,,undang2 malaysia mewartakan wajib tahu baca alquran, dan bila baca kalo tengok alquran, kesalahan tajwid tak boleh lebey dari 3 kali,,kalo lebey tak ley kawen!!!emmmm,, bapa kerat lagi ek yang tinggal nak kawen,,,hidup semakin menarik,,,,

mari kita tambah lagi,,,”suppose”…undang2 malaysia mewartakan wajib tahu baca alquran, dan bila baca kalo tengok alquran, kesalahan tajwid tak boleh lebey dari 3 kali,,dan wajib hafal sekurang2nya 15 surah dari alquran tak kira dari surah kecik atopon surah besar,,,tak ingat takley kawen!!!aiiyooo…bape yang tinggal ek,,,agaknya 2 org jer kowt yang tinggal, tuepon Pak imam yang nak kawen kali ke 3…yang len sume faill…

kalo kita pk balik,,uuuuUUU,,kejam nya undang2 kalo gini,,tapi pikir ler sekali lagi,,selaku lelaki,,bila kawen,,nak kena jadi imam,,betolkan isteri punya alfatihah,,,kalo salah,,sapa nak tanggung ,,? takkan kucing kat umah kowt,,lagi sekali,,sian la kat kucing tue,,,

so,,bwat masa skang nie,,selagi ada masa, ada kesempatan,,,mari la kita sama2 belajar alquran,,jangan nanti bila kelak,,dalam kelas alquran,,anak kita di tepi, kita di tepi dia..(budget nak temankan anak ler..)

nota pengarang…idea nie d dapati bila pengarang di tegor oleh imam kat masjid sebab baca alquran salah and tergagap2…

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baru jer pas basuh pinggan bukak puasa tadi,,uuu,,bese la,,orang kalo dah terlampau rajin gini la,,,kalo malas msti nak bukak pose esok plak baru basuh balik,,=P

sambil2 basuh tue,,teringat kata2 Ballack stoking merah pernah kata dulu,,(I miss you act,,,ke mana kamu menghilang,,,ak rindu saat ak pau biskut bilik mu dulu),,,engineer nie,,kalo dah keje selama 4 5 taun,,bley jadi senior engineer,,kira,,,ayat mudah nie,,senior engineer and fresh engineer nie,,beza dia,,kalo dua2 g kat field nak cari minyak,,si senior pakai bau jer,,sambil2 mata tutup sebab menguap dah boley tunjuk minyak kat ne sedangkan, walhal,,arakian pon fresh engineer nie dengan “Texas Ins. T-84-Silver-Limited Edition” pon (hanya budak engineer and kmb jer tau benda nie kowt,,=P) belum tentu boley kire tempat specific minyak,,,

kalo doc plak,,kalo dah pengalaman 5 6 tahun,,,boley jadi specialist, kalo lagi lama, bley jadi sub-specialist,,emm,,,bagi sapa yang kurang faham,,analogy dia gini la,,ak pon tak tau gak act,,tapi ak cuba la  explainkan ekk,,,cam,,,cite naruto,,mula2 pringkat bawah nie cam Jounin la,,,(shikamaru,,sakura-chan)..atas skep cam 3 legendaries-senin,,(Orochimaru, JIraiya-sama and Tsunade) and atas lagi Kage(Hokage, Kazekage,,)..*nota pengarang,,rujuk episode 300 dan ke bawah,,bukan ke atas=P..

kira makin lama and byk pengalaman,,makin terrer la,,tue baru 5 6 tahun lama,,,maybe paling lama 10 or 20 tahun la kowt,,kalo cam setan,,dah idup sebelum nabi adam idup lagi,,kira apa ek,,,? Apa specialty mereka? sangat terrer kah??dan kita tahu main modus operandi mereka,,,deviate people from straight and sincere path,,hummm,,sangat menarik kalo di pikirkan bersama,,,

pastue,,minda ak berubah lagi,,memikirkan,,,emmm,,sangat mustahak I guess,,iaitu,,Ak kene tidoq,,sok nak bangun sahur,,=p,,so,,pikir2 sendiri la ek,,nak tido,,jumpa lagi,,salam..

sayonara pada malam ini,,marhababika pada hari esok,,,0035

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sajer jer, baru pas wat report, alhamdulillah dah siap, nak g skolah, nak jumpa prof, tapi hujan la plak, so “leka sebentar bersama kit kat la”…=p

apa ek nak cakap,,emmm,,okay,,meh bercerita pasal dewa dewa di TU:

(Dewa 1st)

boleh letak macam2 nama, dewa masak,,,sebab memang boley masak la,,,walopon sem lepas dua kali rumah hampir terbakar sebab lupa bukak kipas asap kat atas dapur, waktu tue jugak la alarm berbunyi and security call nak datang,,tapi tue first time jer, second time security call jer sambil gelak, what, you forget to open the smoke fan again~huhuhuuhu

pon boley jugak nak letak dewa confuse,,sebab tiap kali ada rumus2 payah dari professor,,memang akan kuar la teori2 dia yang pelik2,,yang mudah pon jadi payah,,,tapi,,once bila kita berjaya memahami teori pelik dia tue,,insyaallah akan dapat A dalam test,,yakin lah dengan izin allah,,,dia memang born with talent benda2 gini nie

(dewa kedua)

boley panggil dewa gelabah,,sebab tiap2 kali apa2 jer,,mesti gelabah tak tentu pasal,,tak kira la kecik ker besar,,memang sapa yang rasa diri dia cool should duduk tepi dewa nie,,,masa dia “menurun ilmu gelabah nie”,,,boley tahu la diri tu cool ker tak,,tapi yang bestnya,,keje2 dia insyaallah akan siap,,and exam result dia pon akan okay dgn cemerlang berkat menggelabah dia nie,,,

dewa bunyi bunyian pon boley jugak,,sebab dia boley mengeluarkan macam2 bunyi dari mulut dia,,tak yah bwat,,otomatik kuar bunyi,,,haa,,,kalo bersiul org pakai mulut, dia pakai idung and tekak jer bunyi,,,even tidor pon bunyi masih kedengaran,,,,

humm,,setakat itu saja la dulu kowt,,yang laen akan menyusul,,,takyah nak gelak dewa2 laen,,,kamu akan bakal di kutuk lepas nie…=p …ini adalah gurauan sahaja,,bagi sapa yang tak tahan dikutuk,,boley send msj awal2,,kalo tak,,nantikan saja kedatangan anda,,maaf di pinta,,,”bukan sekadar kompang”,,,err,,ada kaitan ker>???ummm aper2 jer la,,,(sambil tangan dikibas lembut)….=p …teeet(gaya dewa masak)

salam

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2 Sept 2008,

Sometimes, remember something at the past really helps me to make sure that I still step on the reality, not flying through the wide sky happily~

well, tonite, I wore something that really,,,errr,,yes, people can say quite weird, baju batik and slacks for terawih prayers,,,hohohoho, me myself wonder why i behave like that,,huummmm,,,actually, my uncles gave them to me before i came to US last years, for me, I am quite impressive and thankful to them, as they all also did not have much money…but for me, they sacrificed something, for those who afford, they gave me some money, but for those who didnt they bought the shirts and pants,, but these pants and shirts,,well,,,for me are quite awesome,,,Dappers, Chargers, Cheetah and so forth, i wear them very rarely as i am not used to wear all these things,usually i wear ordinary casual T-shirt with no brands,,but i know i need to learn how to use "them" as one day,,,i need to and must to!

Still remember, in secondary school, in form 5, during this year, there were lots of farewell parties such as from class, prefect, prs, clubs and school uniform. When it was about to a party, my life will be busy,,what???Busy borrowing formal t-shirts from juniors as I dont have even a sinlge-one. man!!!life at this time was so hectic, my ability in searching, begging and autocratic was really excellent at this time,,hohohoho,,,quite beautiful and meaningful for me. I also used to call back home and told my mom, that i need a t-shirt,,,well,,,what my mom did was, she took my dad’s shirt and had a temporary sewing at both edge-sides (ask tailors how and what for to do it) so that i could suit that shirt, after the party over, i need to hand in back the shirt,,,,,,,

nowadays, I have lots of fancy shirts, but,,,i kind a ,,errr,,dont know how to wear them(well,,this is the truth)…because "i was trained",,,mind, body and even my soul to wear ordinary-casual-no brand shirts by the surrounding….life is so beautiful,,,strange but still,,,sweet~

i like it ,,,sincerely,,,frankly,,honestly,,,dont know else what to say,,,,

now, this moment,,what i did…what i do is observing and have a sharp research at my friends, people around me how are their appearances, so that i can absorb, asimilate which ones are good as mine,,,,practice make perfects…

Good luck myself….

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Facing the window pane…

Humm,,dont know what to say actually, but suddenly lagu yang i downloaded sang by Halim Yazid on air,,,

all of sudden i brushed all the cobwebs, the nostalgia that disappeared long time ago flashes into my mind,,,lagu yang berjudul "diri Ambo part 1" really nostalgic, tragic but meaningful, i always put myself into his shoes, as we both came,,err,,come(much be better) from a poor family, since primary school we faced so many difficulties in our life, fighting, struggling against them and thanks to Allah, we are here now,, we try to change our life but not all can be changed,, so i we just accept it with open heart and mind,,,

that song, although the last time i heard it was almost 10 years ago, but it is so clear like a blue sky in my mind, the rythm and lyric is so meaningful,,,cant and dont want to forget it,,,

well,,here i am today, alone again, in the middle of nowhere, i hear some sounds but there is not even a single soul, so sad, its sunny outside, but its raining inside, oo Allah, I accept what does you give to me and I am begging to you to nurture my heart to bear with it as everything comes from you, lead me, guide me on the right path,,

i know i can do this as i used to do the same things before, in secondary school was the worst i guess, but i managed to undergone it, so it is impossible that i cant do it now, all i need is the strength from you,,,

i still remember my dialogue with a good friend before…."dont you feel jealous with others that have their parents but here we are, alone, have nothing"..i asked him when we were in the examination atmsophere at that time, all our friends had their parents except for us because ours could not afford to do so,,out of the blues, he replied with strenght and confidence,,,"its okay, we both have allah"…that struck my life forever,,,,

OO allah, I have YOu, and I always have you,,,stop the blabbering, stop the tearing, raise your head and start the fighting~

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21 August 2008,

0750 (waktu tempatan),

sampai kat jepon,,,,sangat menarik…masa nak pergi pada transit seterusnya tue,,ak terlepas bas pada waktu tue,,sebab terpesona ngan tandas dia,,,hohoho,,,masuk lam tandas, nampak ada sowg mamat nie dok gosok gigi,,,ak pon tak peduli la kat dia..masuk jer buang air,,,kuar2,,ada lagi sowg mamat laen dok gosok gigi,,,ak pon kuarkan berus gigi and gosok gak ler…

nilai mata wang yen memang amat mengelirukan ak pada mulanya,,apa punya besar la,,,ribu2 yen lagi,,,so ak pon g la mengusha2 dulu,,nampak la kat public phone di jual dengan harga 1000 yen,,dengan menggunakan kepakaran yang ada, ak cuba memerhati harga keychain yang di jual kat sebuah kedai cenderamata kat sini,,,harga lam 500 yen,,so secara logiknya,,takkan keychain lebey dari $7,,,so ak pon dgn braninya g tukar duit kata nak $10,,dapat la 1066 yen,,misteri selesai sudah,,,,dapat duit beli la card phone,,call mak,call kawan kat us,,,,,,,,,

pastue,,beranikan diri g jalan2 kat kedai souvenir nie,,,dia jual kimono ngan harga 5600 yen gitu,,comellllllll,,,,nak beli,,tapi cam mahal la plakkkk,,,pastue nampak ada owg jual cenderamata berupa beg kecik buatan tangan,,,pon comel gak,,,beli jer la,,,,lam 1000 yen je lagi pon,,,sambar la dua bijik.

dah kat sini,,nak solat satu hal plak,,nak bwat solat cam biasa,,aiyooo,,iman tak cukup kuat and berani nak bwat g2,,so,,g la usha2 tempat,,sekali jumpa dressing room,,apa lagi,,port baek….punya,,,pastue,,nak tau masa solat la plak,,alhamdulillah,,allah mengilhamkan kat ak sebelum nie tak tido masa ustaz mengaja kat sekolah dulu cara nak tentukan solat ngan matahari,,,ak pon g la kat window pane kat situ,,,ukur bayang kapal terbang,,,bila dah nampak bayang dia jadi lebey panjang dari kapal terbang tue,, ak yakin zohor dah masuk,,so ak solat jamak terus ngan asar, alhamdulillah,,,,,

sementara menunggu kapal terbang nie,,,ak tido atas katil mini kat airport nie,,kat sini mmg terkenal ngan ada satu corner nie,,dia mmg sediakan tempat yang mana ada sejarah jepon, katail cam tradisi jepon and ada lukisan sejarah,,kat sini mmg ramai owg tdo pon,,,ada la mat and minah saleh tido tepi ak,,,ak bwat donno jer la,,,tido jer,,bila dah dgr announce kapal terbang,,,ak pon bangun,,,tapi yang peliknya,,ak sepatah haram pon tak tau jepon,,masa announce tue, dia pakai bahasa jepon,,,tapi instinct ak kuat katakan tue kapal terbang ak and ia adalah betol,,,,pernerbangan berjalan lancar,,,alhamdulillah,,,time to get busy with own stuff.

salam perpisahan narita,,salam pertemuan amerika~

Alone with you…

How can i walk down this road alone,
with each step i think of you,
waiting for me at its end.

My thoughts reach the heaven and color them red. My heart beats red as i walk this path.

But with you waiting, the way is fragrant. I am not alone.

As i rush to your embrace, the ruby sky follows close behind.

17 may 2008…

0900…

tak tau naper,,rasa sangat sedey,,cuba memikirkan ape penyebabnya,,,adakah di sebabkan sikap and tindakan ak sendiri yg terlalu melulu? mungkin!

adakah sebab kata2 and ayat yg diguna atau yg di katakan pada ku? mungkin! adakah di sebabkan ak tak der keje sangat dan sekaligus menyebabkan ak memikirkan akan sesuatu yg remeh pon sebagai yg sangat serius? mungkin!

mungkin juga sebab layanan sahabat yg amat dingin seolah2 mencurah minyak ke api? mungkin!

so,,apa solusinya:

a) allah,,ak berazam nak ubah sikap aku,,nak bwat sesuatu ak akan fikir dulu sedalam2,,bukan maen telan jer,,kalo nak balas baek pon,,,ak akan tahan dulu sehingga betol2 masa sesuai baru la ak akan bwat sesuatu,,,

b) kali nie,,sapa2 yg kuarkan kata2 pedas,,or kata2 yg aku rasa cam tak best bagi aku,,jaga la dia,,aku akan terus balas,,no more tolerate walopon dia nie "mungkin" tak matang lagi or apa2 jer la,,,

c) cuba busykan diri dgn sesuatu yg berfaedah so that i can take something for granted and take everything easy,,,be a normal faja,,,

..la ta khaf wala tahzan,,,

innallah ha ma’asobirin,,,

11 May 2008…

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kalo kita tengok balik cite stephen chow,,

aper2 jer la,,cj7 ker, kungfu hustle ker, shaolin soccer ker,,,apa lagi ek,,god of cookery ker,,kita mungkin akan mengalami sakit perut yg tak terhingga,,sebab ketawa kuat sangat,,lawak dia mmg takley blah,,huhuhu..mmg stephen chow nie,,born with talent la,,dalam bwat cite bodo nie,,,

namun,,kalo kite pk balik,,err,,should i say if i think back,,,this is my personal opinions…actually,,from the movies,,,we can get 2 main moral values,,,,

1st) kalo kita jadi kaya,,dapat nikmat harta ker, harta paras supa ker, and akal,,jgn la kita jadi bongkak and berada pada tahap optimum separator conditions (fluid properties terminology),,,selalu sindir orang,,hina and tindas manusia yg berada bawah kita,,,sebab lambat laun,,,allah akan bagi balik benda tue pada kita,,,kita tengok dalan god of cookery,,stephen tue dia terrer gila masak,,tapi sebab kerek nak mampos,,last2 dia jadi pengemis,,,dalam shaolin soccer,,,coach si kaki emas tue,,kerek gila,,letak kaki atas kepala orang lagi,,,last2 orang plak letak atas kepala dia,,di sini kita dapat lihata akan kritikan social (IB programme specialization) pengarah pada golongan strata pertama pada masa kini,,,hummm…

2nd) bagi saper2 yg merasakan hidup dia nie,,,lost without trace,,or no hope at all,,,jgn la …sebab kita dapat tgok bagaimana makhluk miskin and gagal dalam cite nie,,,sebab dgn semangat berkibar2 dalam dada,,mereka mampu mengubah hidup kepada better,,,kan,,sini adalah contoh yg cuba di pamerkan pada kita,,bahawa,,allah mementingkan usaha,,baru hasil,,,dan selalu,,lagi dan lagi,,allah itu adil,,,,memberikan yg terbaek berdasarkan usaha hamba dia,,,

itu saja kata2 hati ku,,meow~ 0838~

3 May 2008
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petang nie,, serius mmg indah,,ngan udara yg sejuk2 cam anak ayam mati,
angin bertiup nyaman lak, ngan tak study langsung sejak pagi tadi lagi,,
allah,,mmg nyaman hidup nie,, namun,, ak tau,, nie hanya la sementara saja,,
pas2 nie sure kelam kabut ak, ngan exam, homework tak bwat lagi,,
hahaha,,procrastination is the best policy,,

allah, i come to think, that the way you make me lead my life, slowly
and steady, from know nothing to know something,,
mmg indah,,sebab tue ak berani kata ..
allah itu aneh tetapi indah,,selalu buat sesuatu yang aneh,,tetapi indah..,.

ya allah,,bantulah ak, abang aku, adik ku and parents ku dalam hidup kami dunia
and akhirat,,,

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